Love.

If you have been on facebook this morning, then you already got a glimpse into how this really bugs me...
A little over a year ago, I stood in front of many people and vowed to my husband that I would be there until death do us part. Is there something wrong with that? According to Cameron Diaz...my vows are "bullsh**". I recently read an article where she said, "Who would want to be with the same person for 80 years? Why not break it up a bit?" (By the way, you can read this article on usmagazine.com)
Um...I would LOVE to be with my husband for 80 years. When I was "dating around", if that's what you want to call it, I was on a mission to find a soul mate. Why waste your time just dating for the rest of your life? When I found Justin, no one else and nothing else mattered except that he was happy and I was happy and I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this one, amazing person! Yes, he frustrates me and yes we fight and argue...but that doesn't take away the love that I have for him! Marriage means fighting for him when he's sick and when people don't treat him right. Marriage means loving him even though he has flaws. Marriage means commitment.
Later in the article she states, "Have someone for 5 years and another person for another 5 years..." To me, she is saying, "find someone, lead them on, toy with their emotions a bit, and then leave them." After 5 years, you get attached to that person, you believe that person loves you and cares about you, and if they leave, you feel like you never even knew that person. I've seen it happen and it's heartbreaking! If I were to live until I was 70 years old and started sleeping with people when I was 16 years old and only stayed with one person for 5 years at a time I will have been with about 11 people. In 2009, there were approximately 464,623 people in NWA. The statistics show that 9 males per 100,000 have syphillis. If I were to sleep with my 11 people, there is a pretty good chance that I could get syphillis. Yes, Cameron Diaz, these statistics make me want to sleep with a new person every 5 years.

Apparently people don't understand how sacred marriage and those vows that you take during the ceremony are. I know that I am young and most people would think that I am naive, but I really think that if you promise someone that you love them and that you want to be with them forever, you should honor that promise.
Apparently morality isn't a priority anymore.

Thanks for reading,
Meg

New Beginnings.

So...about a week and a half ago, Angela and I started working out. That Saturday we decided that we were gonna workout everyday of the week, Monday thru Friday. Well, we worked out Saturday and Monday and then we both got busy. So, yesterday marked our first day of a gruesome workout schedule. Holy cow, am I sore! Anyways, I didn't get on blogger today to complain about how sore I am from working out. I got on here to address the fact that I know I am thin. I have always been thin and I think being active in sports really kept me as thin as I am. So here I am now, 21 and married. My job consists of me sitting on my butt for about 4 hours, going to lunch to eat a fatty meal with a coke, and sitting on my butt for about 4 more hours. 10 more years of this will definitely start showing on my physique...it already has. So when people come to me and tell me I don't need to workout, I could sit and argue with them for hours about how I am not happy with my body and how even the thinnest of people need to stay fit to stay healthy. So, I beg that people just leave me alone so that I don't have to feel guilty for being happy with the way I look.

On to another note. This last weekend, Justin and I took the 5 hour drive to Wichita, Kansas. I lived in Wichita several years ago and was devastated when mom told us we were moving. I have now lived in NWA for 10 years...and love it! It's probably the best thing that has ever happened to my family and I. Well last weekend, I decided it's probably time to go back and visit a whole different side of the family--my biological dad and his family. Well, we stayed with my Aunt and Uncle who we have been in touch with since last summer and they are so great! They were so welcoming and my aunt even cooked us breakfast which apparently she never does. :) Anyway--I have not seen my father in 5 years. Wow. It was time that Justin met the other half of my creation. Obviously, since I hadn't seen him in 5 years, visiting him was not at the top of my priority list...needless to say, I was a little nervous about this encounter. In the end, all was well and everyone got along...one big, happy family! It made me so happy because now I am comfortable enough to visit more often. Even though my dad and I had a spurt where we weren't talking, and with reason, it's never good to not communicate because you never nkow what could happen, right? And I can't give my Aunt and Uncle and cousins enough credit for their hospitality and open arms and I can't wait to see them again! So--here's to a new and happy beginning!

Meg

Blessings.

I recieved an email the other day that filled me with conviction.
The email was titled "What happens in Heaven when we pray?"
The email went on to explain that there are three working groups in Heaven. The first group is full of many Angels who work by recieving the prayers to God and sorting them. The second group is full of many Angels, again, who work by delivering blessings to those who asked. The third group is just one Angel and this section of work is called the Acknowledgment section. This is the Angel that recieves the thanks from those who recieved the blessings they asked for. There is only one Angel in this section because not many people send proper thanks for those blessings that they recieve.

Wow! It got me thinking. I pray everyday for my loving husband, my great friends, and the best family anyone could ask for. I often forget to send my thanks to the Lord for the apartment I live in, the job that I have, the clothes on my back, the food that I get to eat, the clean water that I drink everyday, the ability to read and write as a result of a good education, the freedom to say what I want and to read my Bible in public, the TWO cars that my husband and I have, the T.V. with cable that I have in my apartment, etc. I could go on all day about the things I am blessed with, so why don't I? Because I am a selfish human being that doesn't know how to appreciate anything because I am a sinful being.

This is one of the many things that I need to work on in my life. Conviction is a very humbling feeling that I am grateful for because now I can grow in my crawl with God.

Another point. I call it a crawl with God because I went to church with Angela on Saturday and her pastor, Andy, described it as a crawl because that is exactly what it is. Walking indicates quick, easy movement toward a goal. I would describe crawling as difficult and slow which is exactly what growing as a Christian is and always will be. Trusting completely in God is not easy and building a relationship with Him is even harder.

Thanks for reading,
Meg