Thursday, June 10, 2010

Too sensitive??

I feel like I am a very easy going person...I get along well with others, whether I am fond of them or not. I try not to be rude and I feel like I succeed at being polite. I'm not sure if I am being really sensitive or if I am just in my feelings but I feel like in the area that we live in, people are SO judgemental. I hope that my friends can really back me up when I say that I am honest. I know that when my friends have issues and decide to vent...I am honest with them about how I feel or what I would do in that particular situation. I hope that's not being judgemental because if it is then I am making a fool of myself by writing this blog.
I have jumped from school to school since I started my college career--I started out being a Secondary Education major wanting to teach Math...4 years of calc is not my cup of tea...so I changed majors in my second semester to Middle school Math and Science education--when I decided that teaching basic math/pre-algebra and possible even having to teach science was not my thing either, I switched schools and major...again. This time I decided I wanted to teach little kids :). Now that I look back on this decision I wonder why my friends didn't hit me in the head and say "Megan--kids hate you" because I apparently forgot that fact. So now, I went from a 4 year university to a 2 year community college and am pursuing banking---for now.
When I review my college career so far--I see someone who wasn't sure what she wanted to do. To other people, I realize that this looks like someone who is taking the easy road. Gr.
Not that I have to prove myself to anyone, but I really see a future in the career path that I have chosen. Even though banking doesn't mean that I'm gonna have all the money in the world--because that's not what matters--it means I will be happy because I feel like this is the path God has sent me down. So, when people make snide remarks reguarding a career that I have chosen, I feel like they are judging me, even if it's not directed at me, personally.
Also, Justin isn't in school at the moment--so what? That's all I have to say about that.
And even before--when we decided to get married. The little "aren't you too young?" Um, no I'm not too young, I am an adult and just because you had bad experiences with marriage doesn't mean you should judge me because I am getting married young. Everyone who is married has or will have their issues, I'm not denying that--nor am I saying that Justin and I are perfect--because we are far from that.

So--not that my frustrations are out there...I'm not sure how much better I feel but now people know what angers me :)

Thanks for reading,
Meg

2 comments:

Angela Roller said...

I think worrying about what other people think is just something we all have to learn to let go.People who are judging you for that aren't your real friends anyway. All you need is God, your husband, your family, and your friends which is what you have :). None of those people are judging you. Love ya.

Angela

Meg said...

Thanks, Angela! :)