Too sensitive??

I feel like I am a very easy going person...I get along well with others, whether I am fond of them or not. I try not to be rude and I feel like I succeed at being polite. I'm not sure if I am being really sensitive or if I am just in my feelings but I feel like in the area that we live in, people are SO judgemental. I hope that my friends can really back me up when I say that I am honest. I know that when my friends have issues and decide to vent...I am honest with them about how I feel or what I would do in that particular situation. I hope that's not being judgemental because if it is then I am making a fool of myself by writing this blog.
I have jumped from school to school since I started my college career--I started out being a Secondary Education major wanting to teach Math...4 years of calc is not my cup of tea...so I changed majors in my second semester to Middle school Math and Science education--when I decided that teaching basic math/pre-algebra and possible even having to teach science was not my thing either, I switched schools and major...again. This time I decided I wanted to teach little kids :). Now that I look back on this decision I wonder why my friends didn't hit me in the head and say "Megan--kids hate you" because I apparently forgot that fact. So now, I went from a 4 year university to a 2 year community college and am pursuing banking---for now.
When I review my college career so far--I see someone who wasn't sure what she wanted to do. To other people, I realize that this looks like someone who is taking the easy road. Gr.
Not that I have to prove myself to anyone, but I really see a future in the career path that I have chosen. Even though banking doesn't mean that I'm gonna have all the money in the world--because that's not what matters--it means I will be happy because I feel like this is the path God has sent me down. So, when people make snide remarks reguarding a career that I have chosen, I feel like they are judging me, even if it's not directed at me, personally.
Also, Justin isn't in school at the moment--so what? That's all I have to say about that.
And even before--when we decided to get married. The little "aren't you too young?" Um, no I'm not too young, I am an adult and just because you had bad experiences with marriage doesn't mean you should judge me because I am getting married young. Everyone who is married has or will have their issues, I'm not denying that--nor am I saying that Justin and I are perfect--because we are far from that.

So--not that my frustrations are out there...I'm not sure how much better I feel but now people know what angers me :)

Thanks for reading,
Meg

Time Flies.

The saying, "time flies" has proven itself in my life, lately. Justin and I made it through our first year of marriage! Woo! The cake...was nasty. I know most people say it's really good, just like your wedding day...nope, ours wasn't. It was AMAZING on our wedding day, but not so much after sitting in the freezer for a year. Also, Justin and I have been looking forward to going back to California this year (he proposed to me in Disneyland)...this trip has snuck up on me. We leave next Saturday! Holy cow! I'm so pumped, though! I love his family and we get to go to the beach and go to Disneyland and just get away and go to some DRY heat! Nobody has any idea how much I miss the dry heat.
Time has brought me to some great times and family...but time has gone by so quickly lately...I turn 22 this year! JEEZ! My best friend is FINALLY moving back to Rogers, so I can see her more often before school consumes her life again! Captain Jack is 5 months old and so cute! Before I know it, I'm gonna be ready to have kids...AH! (Don't worry, mom, I'm not ready yet).
Speaking of kids, I'm not fond of many kids...there are a select few that I absolutely LOVE, though! One of them being my friend's baby, Cooper! He is ten months old, and I don't think I could love another baby as much as I love him (until I have some of my own, someday). He is always so happy and smiling! I went with his mommy and daddy and him to the pool yesterday evening and he just floated in his tube with a big grin on his face! And then when we all went in for dinner, I was holding him and he just laid on my chest and went to sleep! He looked so peaceful and at ease and I felt so proud of myself, because if you know me, kids do NOT like me, but he gave up without a fight and when I put him in his bed, he didn't even wake up! Maybe someday I will be ready for some of my own. But until then, I have Cooper...and a few more.
So, even though I feel like someone has pushed the fast forward button on my life, I am having a blast and loving every minute of it and everyone in it! God has truly blessed my life!

Square One.

So, here we are, back to square one. As Justin and I have been praying about this situation with his job and what he is going to do, Justin has decided that the Army isn't the right choice. Like I said, square one. So where do we go from here??

The bright side?? We will stay here in NWA and hopefully in a year, look to buy a house. YAY! It's been a crazy couple of weeks and I'm not sure where we will go from here about his job...but I know that if we trust in God and keep our faith, he will show us what to do and where to go.

Sometimes, I miss the days when I didn't have to be an adult. When mommy and daddy made all of my decisions for me and gave me lunch money and all I had to worry about was getting my school work done and brushing my teeth before I went to bed and in the morning when I woke up. I feel so wishy washy right now, like we can't make up our minds but to be honest...that's how confused I am. I don't know what God has planned for us. But I have comfort in knowing that He does have a plan for us, whether we are aware of what that plan may be or not.

So, even though it's not quite the journey I had planned, we are one a journey, none-the-less.

Thanks for reading.
Meg

Patience

Usually, I am a very patient person. Lately, my patience is starting to wear very thin. Justin's job is always in the front of my mind because I know he is very unhappy and all I want is for him to be happy. I keep praying for patience and I know that God is always there for me and won't put us through anything that we won't be able to handle, as long as we depend on Him. It's just so sad to me that grown men get a kick out of making fun of people just to see how weak they are. I do have to say that I am so proud of my husband for not stooping to their level and if it does get to him, then he's good at not showing it.

It's such and exciting/nerve wracking time not knowing where we are going to be or what we are going to be doing in the next year. As soon as Justin signs papers, we go where the army tells us to go. The good thing about it is he is going active which means where he goes, I go. It'll be an adventure and at first I was scared, but now I am kind of excited. I will be without him for 10-22 weeks depending on the occupation he decides to do. He is leaning toward MP(Military Police) or Firefighter. The training including basic training for MP is 19 weeks and 22 weeks for Firefighter. Woo...but they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder. We are hoping they need one of those in Southern California or Arizona for the warm weather! How awesome would that be. When I think about it, it kind of makes me sad that I will be leaving this place that I have been for 10 years...but then I think about how Justin will get 30 days of vacation a year...and we will come back and visit since this is where our families and friends are.

Some verses for thought today are Joshua 1:5 and Romans 8:27-28. They got me through the day yesterday.

Thanks for reading!
Meg

I love peanut butter!

Everyday for the past week I have had an apple with peanut butter for breakfast...YUM! I think I could probably eat a whole jar of peanut butter all by myself! Ha!

So for more serious talk...a couple of posts ago I discussed Justin and his job situation. Right now, he is so fed up with his job and he has a strong yearning to finish school and get a promising career, but when he comes home from work, he can't even think about sitting down to do homework because of how exhausted he is. So that brings us to our next dilemma...what do we do about his job and getting him back into school? He has gotten advice from many trustworthy people in the church and gotten opinions from his family and friends. Right now, he is seriously considering going Active Duty Army. There are many benefits (and don't worry, he didn't decide this on his own) from being able to go to school while in the army and getting it 100% paid for, great health insurance for both of us, he will be in GREAT physical shape which he has been wanting to do since he graduated, and many more. With the benefits for him come benefits for me as well, such as the adventure that I have been wanting to take--just getting up and moving somewhere...warm preferrably...if I have to go through another Arkansas winter...it may kill me.
So, here starts our adventure. I know that if this is for sure what he decides to do, I will have a great support system including my family and some great friends who have been through what I may have to go through. What really bursts my bubble is that when I tell people what we may be doing, they look at me and talk to me like this is the dumbest decision that we could make, when really what I need right now is people to support me and my husband because this ISN'T an easy decision and if they are truly my friends then they would support us instead of try to make me feel bad about this decision. Don't get me wrong, I value honesty, but talking to me like I am stupid and honesty are completely different. I have already shed tears over the thought of being away from him for a short period of time and we haven't even decided yet but because this is a very real situation and a very real possibility, I need all the help I can get.

So for those of you who didn't already know about this contemplation...SURPRISE...and for those of you who we have told and discussed this with...thank you for your support and prayers and I hope that we can get more support as we solidify this decision if that's what we decide to do.

On a happier note, in light of mother's day which was last week I wanted to share that I have the BEST mom that anyone could ask for. She supports me in everything and I could tell her that we are moving to China and she would say, "When can we come visit?" Without her, I would definitely not be where I am today. I love you, Mommy!!
Also, could I be lucky enough to have the best Mother-in-law?? Well, God has definitely blessed me with one. She is so great and I know I could go to her with anything! She also supports us 100% with anything that we do and I love her to pieces.
And last but DEFINITELY not least is my Nana. I am so blessed to have a "grandma" who has been in my life since before I can even remember. She is there for me through thick and thin and I think that he best quality (besides loving me no matter what) is that she is honest and she always has been. I love that I can go to her with a situation and if she thinks it's a bad idea--she will tell me and I value that.

Well I guess that's all for now!
Thanks for reading!
Meg

Big Bucks

So, if you don't know me and Justin very well, we are movie people. Let us watch a good movie and we will rant about it all day long. I know, nerdy, right? Well I DID work at Blockbuster for 4 and a half years. :) My point? I can really appreciate what the actors do to entertain. I can sit in front of the mirror for 20 minutes acting out a joke that I will present to Justin and the moment he is there and I try, I can't keep a straight face. In Hollywood, they are all pros (well, most of them). That's why they pay them the "big bucks". Haha, I know, I'm a nerd. But seriously, when I am bored, I will sit and watch the special features and watch the interviews and special effects and it's amazing what they can do. But what really gets me is the big namers that do all the dirty work. Take Johnny Depp for example, everyone KNOWS he's amazing but in POTC 3, the scene where Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones are sword fighting on a beam--you guessed it, that's really Johnny Depp. No one would get me up on a beam, 10 ft in the air, wires or not.

Another one who really amazes me? Ashton Kutcher. He can play pretty much any part. He's so funny in most of his roles, but then he surprises you in something like The Butterfly Affect. What really gets me going is that people can talk all day about how anyone can act and anyone can walk in 5 inch heels in a 20,000 dollar dress any day. But the truth is, not everyone can do that, that's why it's called talent. Actors and actresses are up at the butt crack of dawn and stay up into the night doing interviews, filming, going to awards shows while giving up quality family time and all rights to privacy.

So next time you sit and criticize them for making so much money "without any talent", think about how much you like it when people get mad at you and criticize you for doing what you are good at.

This is kind of a random post but thanks for reading! :)
Meg

Happy May!

IT'S MAY!
What a bittersweet month! May is a month of celebration, it's also a month where I spend a ton of money! My mom and best friend's birthday is the same day, Mother's Day is two days after that, and my sister's birthday is the day after that! Jeez. But that's okay, I really love buying people gifts! This year, there is more celebration because our wedding anniversary is this month along with Angela and John's wedding anniversary! YAY! I can't believe it has already been a year!!
A couple weeks ago, some friends of ours started coming to church with us! YAY! Some great things are happening at FBC Rogers; we are moving to our new building next month sometime which is so awesome--on Sunday, we got to go sign the concrete floor before they lay the carpet this week which was fun and we recently got a new youth pastor who seems to be way awesome, all of the kids and teens seem to love him. There has also been hard times recently for people in the church; FBC Bentonville's hispanic congregation was involved in a bus accident resulting in 1 killed and several injured, so we have been praying for them, also, the little girl who was shot and killed last week attended FBC Rogers with her parents so we have been praying for them as well.
In light of the first earthquake to ever be recorded in Benton County, my mother-in-law sent me a verse; Matthew 24: 6-8 (NIV)

6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not
alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will
rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and
earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.

WOW! When I read this, I rejoiced because I am so excited for our Lord to come back for us! That's something that's on the top of my list to experience and if things keep going the way they have been, I think I might get to experience it! YAY!

I really didn't anticipate for this post to be so long so I'll get off here now!
Thanks for reading!
Meg

Current read: "Same Kind of Different as Me" by Ron Hall and Denver Moore
--Should be interesting...two trustworthy people recommended it so, we will see.