Love.

If you have been on facebook this morning, then you already got a glimpse into how this really bugs me...
A little over a year ago, I stood in front of many people and vowed to my husband that I would be there until death do us part. Is there something wrong with that? According to Cameron Diaz...my vows are "bullsh**". I recently read an article where she said, "Who would want to be with the same person for 80 years? Why not break it up a bit?" (By the way, you can read this article on usmagazine.com)
Um...I would LOVE to be with my husband for 80 years. When I was "dating around", if that's what you want to call it, I was on a mission to find a soul mate. Why waste your time just dating for the rest of your life? When I found Justin, no one else and nothing else mattered except that he was happy and I was happy and I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with this one, amazing person! Yes, he frustrates me and yes we fight and argue...but that doesn't take away the love that I have for him! Marriage means fighting for him when he's sick and when people don't treat him right. Marriage means loving him even though he has flaws. Marriage means commitment.
Later in the article she states, "Have someone for 5 years and another person for another 5 years..." To me, she is saying, "find someone, lead them on, toy with their emotions a bit, and then leave them." After 5 years, you get attached to that person, you believe that person loves you and cares about you, and if they leave, you feel like you never even knew that person. I've seen it happen and it's heartbreaking! If I were to live until I was 70 years old and started sleeping with people when I was 16 years old and only stayed with one person for 5 years at a time I will have been with about 11 people. In 2009, there were approximately 464,623 people in NWA. The statistics show that 9 males per 100,000 have syphillis. If I were to sleep with my 11 people, there is a pretty good chance that I could get syphillis. Yes, Cameron Diaz, these statistics make me want to sleep with a new person every 5 years.

Apparently people don't understand how sacred marriage and those vows that you take during the ceremony are. I know that I am young and most people would think that I am naive, but I really think that if you promise someone that you love them and that you want to be with them forever, you should honor that promise.
Apparently morality isn't a priority anymore.

Thanks for reading,
Meg

New Beginnings.

So...about a week and a half ago, Angela and I started working out. That Saturday we decided that we were gonna workout everyday of the week, Monday thru Friday. Well, we worked out Saturday and Monday and then we both got busy. So, yesterday marked our first day of a gruesome workout schedule. Holy cow, am I sore! Anyways, I didn't get on blogger today to complain about how sore I am from working out. I got on here to address the fact that I know I am thin. I have always been thin and I think being active in sports really kept me as thin as I am. So here I am now, 21 and married. My job consists of me sitting on my butt for about 4 hours, going to lunch to eat a fatty meal with a coke, and sitting on my butt for about 4 more hours. 10 more years of this will definitely start showing on my physique...it already has. So when people come to me and tell me I don't need to workout, I could sit and argue with them for hours about how I am not happy with my body and how even the thinnest of people need to stay fit to stay healthy. So, I beg that people just leave me alone so that I don't have to feel guilty for being happy with the way I look.

On to another note. This last weekend, Justin and I took the 5 hour drive to Wichita, Kansas. I lived in Wichita several years ago and was devastated when mom told us we were moving. I have now lived in NWA for 10 years...and love it! It's probably the best thing that has ever happened to my family and I. Well last weekend, I decided it's probably time to go back and visit a whole different side of the family--my biological dad and his family. Well, we stayed with my Aunt and Uncle who we have been in touch with since last summer and they are so great! They were so welcoming and my aunt even cooked us breakfast which apparently she never does. :) Anyway--I have not seen my father in 5 years. Wow. It was time that Justin met the other half of my creation. Obviously, since I hadn't seen him in 5 years, visiting him was not at the top of my priority list...needless to say, I was a little nervous about this encounter. In the end, all was well and everyone got along...one big, happy family! It made me so happy because now I am comfortable enough to visit more often. Even though my dad and I had a spurt where we weren't talking, and with reason, it's never good to not communicate because you never nkow what could happen, right? And I can't give my Aunt and Uncle and cousins enough credit for their hospitality and open arms and I can't wait to see them again! So--here's to a new and happy beginning!

Meg

Blessings.

I recieved an email the other day that filled me with conviction.
The email was titled "What happens in Heaven when we pray?"
The email went on to explain that there are three working groups in Heaven. The first group is full of many Angels who work by recieving the prayers to God and sorting them. The second group is full of many Angels, again, who work by delivering blessings to those who asked. The third group is just one Angel and this section of work is called the Acknowledgment section. This is the Angel that recieves the thanks from those who recieved the blessings they asked for. There is only one Angel in this section because not many people send proper thanks for those blessings that they recieve.

Wow! It got me thinking. I pray everyday for my loving husband, my great friends, and the best family anyone could ask for. I often forget to send my thanks to the Lord for the apartment I live in, the job that I have, the clothes on my back, the food that I get to eat, the clean water that I drink everyday, the ability to read and write as a result of a good education, the freedom to say what I want and to read my Bible in public, the TWO cars that my husband and I have, the T.V. with cable that I have in my apartment, etc. I could go on all day about the things I am blessed with, so why don't I? Because I am a selfish human being that doesn't know how to appreciate anything because I am a sinful being.

This is one of the many things that I need to work on in my life. Conviction is a very humbling feeling that I am grateful for because now I can grow in my crawl with God.

Another point. I call it a crawl with God because I went to church with Angela on Saturday and her pastor, Andy, described it as a crawl because that is exactly what it is. Walking indicates quick, easy movement toward a goal. I would describe crawling as difficult and slow which is exactly what growing as a Christian is and always will be. Trusting completely in God is not easy and building a relationship with Him is even harder.

Thanks for reading,
Meg

Life is Good.

I don't really have a whole lot going on right now, so there really isn't anything to blog about. I feel like I'm in a pretty good spot in life right now. Justin and I are doing great! I'm spending more time with people that I should be spending time with. I feel like my relationship with God is growing stronger (although, there is always room to grow). Our vacation to California was awesome! I only wish we could have brought the weather back with us. It never fails, no matter how many times I have been to Disneyland, it's never dull. I could ride the same rides and watch the same shows over and over again and not get bored with it. Also, we came back from vacation and my mother-in-law is engaged!! So awesome! I'm so happy for her!
Justin and I can talk all day about moving away from here and going west, but it always comes down to the people that we would leave behind and that makes it hard to actually leave. Also, after a ton of prayer and some rough days, Justin is finally starting to enjoy his job more. That might have to do with the fact that he isn't directly working with the guy who made him miserable, although he isn't one hundred percent out of the picture, it's so much more bareable for him. My puppy is finally starting to grow, haha. He doesn't look like a guinea pig, he actually looks like a yorkie! As much as I loooove little dogs, I love big dogs, too. Especially my best friends Great Dane, Chief! He rocks, mostly because he cuddles with me when I'm there :).
Well, all in all, I'm really happy with life! God has truly blessed me with a great husband, friends, and family!

Vacation

I went on vacation last week with my wonderful husband and his little brother to California to visit family and go to Disneyland (of course)! I learned a few things on this vacation.
1. Fly, don't drive. We had planned on flying but waited to long to look at tickets and round trip for Justin and I would have been $1000+...yuck. So we got this brilliant idea that we would make a road trip out of it. Never again. By the end of the week, my butt hurt so bad from being in the car that I thought it would fall off. Not only that, but my back ached, my knees ached, my ankles ached...I felt 90, not 21.
2. Don't talk. Talking starts arguments.
3. Wear your own sunglasses. I lost Joe's sunglasses in the water when I was getting off the Jungle cruise ride. Justin thought he would be funny and tell everyone to give me a hard time...Joe decided to give me a REALLY hard time and I didn't get to enjoy the Haunted Mansion ride because my feelings got hurt.
4. Jack in the Box tacos get stale if you don't eat them within an hour.
5. Don't freak out right before getting your first tattoo. You will discover that it doesn't hurt and then your adrenaline will make you feel sick.
6. Don't eat in Disneyland. It will break you.

I had a GREAT time on vacation, but every experience is a learning experience...and I learned a lot on this trip. I also learned that Justin's cousin (2nd cousin, actually), Tami, is one of the most generous people I have ever met. I can't thank her enough for everything she gave us and for putting up with all our silly questions about Cali. I've also learned that I need to get out of the humidity as soon as possible and that when it's only 75 degrees on the beach, it's going to be cold.

Thanks for reading!
Meg

Too sensitive??

I feel like I am a very easy going person...I get along well with others, whether I am fond of them or not. I try not to be rude and I feel like I succeed at being polite. I'm not sure if I am being really sensitive or if I am just in my feelings but I feel like in the area that we live in, people are SO judgemental. I hope that my friends can really back me up when I say that I am honest. I know that when my friends have issues and decide to vent...I am honest with them about how I feel or what I would do in that particular situation. I hope that's not being judgemental because if it is then I am making a fool of myself by writing this blog.
I have jumped from school to school since I started my college career--I started out being a Secondary Education major wanting to teach Math...4 years of calc is not my cup of tea...so I changed majors in my second semester to Middle school Math and Science education--when I decided that teaching basic math/pre-algebra and possible even having to teach science was not my thing either, I switched schools and major...again. This time I decided I wanted to teach little kids :). Now that I look back on this decision I wonder why my friends didn't hit me in the head and say "Megan--kids hate you" because I apparently forgot that fact. So now, I went from a 4 year university to a 2 year community college and am pursuing banking---for now.
When I review my college career so far--I see someone who wasn't sure what she wanted to do. To other people, I realize that this looks like someone who is taking the easy road. Gr.
Not that I have to prove myself to anyone, but I really see a future in the career path that I have chosen. Even though banking doesn't mean that I'm gonna have all the money in the world--because that's not what matters--it means I will be happy because I feel like this is the path God has sent me down. So, when people make snide remarks reguarding a career that I have chosen, I feel like they are judging me, even if it's not directed at me, personally.
Also, Justin isn't in school at the moment--so what? That's all I have to say about that.
And even before--when we decided to get married. The little "aren't you too young?" Um, no I'm not too young, I am an adult and just because you had bad experiences with marriage doesn't mean you should judge me because I am getting married young. Everyone who is married has or will have their issues, I'm not denying that--nor am I saying that Justin and I are perfect--because we are far from that.

So--not that my frustrations are out there...I'm not sure how much better I feel but now people know what angers me :)

Thanks for reading,
Meg

Time Flies.

The saying, "time flies" has proven itself in my life, lately. Justin and I made it through our first year of marriage! Woo! The cake...was nasty. I know most people say it's really good, just like your wedding day...nope, ours wasn't. It was AMAZING on our wedding day, but not so much after sitting in the freezer for a year. Also, Justin and I have been looking forward to going back to California this year (he proposed to me in Disneyland)...this trip has snuck up on me. We leave next Saturday! Holy cow! I'm so pumped, though! I love his family and we get to go to the beach and go to Disneyland and just get away and go to some DRY heat! Nobody has any idea how much I miss the dry heat.
Time has brought me to some great times and family...but time has gone by so quickly lately...I turn 22 this year! JEEZ! My best friend is FINALLY moving back to Rogers, so I can see her more often before school consumes her life again! Captain Jack is 5 months old and so cute! Before I know it, I'm gonna be ready to have kids...AH! (Don't worry, mom, I'm not ready yet).
Speaking of kids, I'm not fond of many kids...there are a select few that I absolutely LOVE, though! One of them being my friend's baby, Cooper! He is ten months old, and I don't think I could love another baby as much as I love him (until I have some of my own, someday). He is always so happy and smiling! I went with his mommy and daddy and him to the pool yesterday evening and he just floated in his tube with a big grin on his face! And then when we all went in for dinner, I was holding him and he just laid on my chest and went to sleep! He looked so peaceful and at ease and I felt so proud of myself, because if you know me, kids do NOT like me, but he gave up without a fight and when I put him in his bed, he didn't even wake up! Maybe someday I will be ready for some of my own. But until then, I have Cooper...and a few more.
So, even though I feel like someone has pushed the fast forward button on my life, I am having a blast and loving every minute of it and everyone in it! God has truly blessed my life!